I’m quite a private person (believe it or not) and despite being a “blogger” and choosing to share different aspects of my life online, I still hold back when it comes to sharing more personal issues like when I’m down or struggling. But since I did totally disappear from here (and most of social media in general) thought it was only right I explained why.
So, first things first, I’ve moved again – to Brussels (Belgium) and currently here on work placement (still part of my Erasmus). Bare in mind this life update is long overdue so I have been living in Brussels for a good 10 weeks now.
Moving to Brussels has been hard for me, for countless reasons that I won’t get into too much here but in my case, I’ve been constantly moving and travelling so much in the past three years that it got to the stage where I just got fed up. Travelling in most case is fun and great with numerous perks but then there are also times when it’s not.
For the past few weeks, I had been going through this constant cycle of disappointment, sadness and loneliness. Unlike my previous study abroad experience, this time I was really alone, with no friends and no form of social life. Living that 9-5 life really made me realise the significant of weekends but honestly, weekends were when I was at my lowest as I slept my life away. I still tried to create new content, but with everything just not going right, I really had to make that cautious decision to take a step back and give myself a break because sometimes you just can’t force it.
This is not a sob story or a feel sorry for Billykiss post either (really hate when people do). Besides, I just wanted to be genuinely honest with what was going on and why I went MIA. I am doing better now and I will be fine. I’m now putting my fuel into doing what I love and I have faith. So do stay tune for more consist stuff from me cause I am back!
Sometimes you need to step outside, get some air and remind yourself of who you are and who you want to be.